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I've been too busy to blog - well that's not really true because I have also spent hours doing crosswords and flicking through satellite channels trying to find something interesting to pass the time. I have enjoyed the BBC 4 Edwardian pieces, and at the moment my all time favourite is the RSC's production of Nicholas Nickleby which is running on SKyarts.  If you think I'm being a bit highbrow, well I also watch Bones, Kingdom and almost any other mystery programme going.

It has finally crossed my mind that what I am actually doing is avoiding doing something else and that while I am so engrossed in such pursuits my life is passing before me at a spectacular rate.

Today I met a lovely lady, one of those beautiful souls whose mere presence in a room brings peace and tranquility.

I was visiting an open day held by a charity which occupies another unit in our courtyard. While the rest of us are busy making sure Mammon gets his dues, these good people are working with druggies, alcoholics and their families, friends, carers. They provide a fixed anchor point for such souls who inhabit such a turbulent world.

The lady was a volunteer who comes in on Tuesdays to offer Reiki and other forms of alternate therapy. Just speaking to her soothed my soul which has lately been intent on following a path of meanness and general irritability, the blame for which I had placed squarely on a colleague but now realise had as much if not more to do with the stresses in my life. About 10 days ago this colleague and I had a falling out over a purely personal matter and she complained about me to the boss. Since I refused to apologise for what I said (though I did offer to apologise for the way I said it) she has cut me dead ever since. Somehow, without it even being mentioned, spending a little time with the Reiki lady who is at peace with herself and the world brought it all into perspective.

I'm meeting a friend on Friday who is also a healer. I'm going to ask her for some help to rebalance my soul. I realise now, it's not going to just happen, this time I need help. 

I also realised today how much I miss being a volunteer

22.5.07 21:28